Changes

Why is it that we try so hard to hold onto things that just don’t work. Is it in our nature to try and hold together pieces of something just because they are familiar, comfortable because it’s what we’re use to? Are we so afraid of change that we rather stay in a place that we are not completely happy being in.

Saturday

Have you ever had a dream that felt so real and you wake up feeling exhausted, mentally and physically drained. I’ve tried to shake it off, I took pain meds for the headache with no luck. It’s 8:16 on a Saturday and I’m tucked away in bed waiting for my other half to get home so we can eat and cuddle. So much for going out tonight. Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. ♥️

Siempre

I hugged you today, only today wasn’t really today. You met me in my dreams and it’s the only place where we seem to meet these days. I awoke still feeling your presence and I couldn’t help but to smile. I am thankful for these moments. These moments where I find you, where I feel you. I miss you.

Life lessons

Fall the season where the leaves start to change color and fall off the branches onto the ground. It’s the season of change and hope and the season that reminds us that in order to grow we must fall. As I sit and think about the last two years I am truly disappointed in myself.  I can’t say I fell victim because we all play a part in the choices we make but I did fall. I turned into the women I disliked most. The very women I use to look down on and judge and as I sit here and think about it maybe that was the exact lesson I had to learn...

kept

I wanted to keep her forever but in life the most 

beautiful things can not be kept;

And there was something about the way she kissed me, it felt like an explosion of a thousand lifetimes coming together all at once; it was in that moment that I had realized that all this time it was her who I was missing;

Do not let them get the best of you. If you’ve removed someone from your life and they continuously try to make themselves a factor in your life by speaking about you, following your social networks, sending emails etc, it is up to you to block their energy each and every time. What you allow to effect you will consume you. The best reaction is no reaction at all. 

A very wise man once told me the best answer to a fool is silence. They say you can lead a horse to water but you can’t force them to drink. That’s the power of free will. You cant make someone do what they don’t want to do. If they want to they will and if they don’t they simply won’t.

Sunday thoughts

Another beautiful Sunday and all that comes to mind is how thankful I am. I try to look at things through everyones prespective and though I don't always agree it opens my mind to different possibilities. I'm not always right, and my opinions change everyday, thats what you call growth. There are things that I strongly believed in last year that I don't agree with this year and there are things that I didn't know that now through knowledge know. The point of this post is.... Things change everyday, whether its thoughts, opinions, love, life choices, the weather, things change. Its a part of life you don't have to condemn yourself or others for changing. Be thankful for the experience

and the wisdom it has brought to your life, and live life to the best of your ability.

Moments

There will be moments and decisions in your life that you will not be proud of. Some you may never speak of, but all of these moments and decisions make you who you are. You may make a mistake more then once some you will learn from and some will help you grow into a better individual. A negative does not have to stay a negative you have the power to turn it into a positive. Maybe you can help someone in a similar situation, give them advice and lead them into better choices, and maybe one day you will look back and realize how necessary it was for you to go through that exact experience;

Cyber world

In today's day an age, where it's so easy to gain access to a person through social media it's easy to fall into the social media world. It is now easy for people to gain access to you and vice verse. People become highly interested in your everyday life for what ever reason it may be. Social media is not real life. People can perceive things in a way you didn't mean it. Men become obsessed with half naked women and woman become obsessed with men for the image they put out there. Women become obsessed with stalking their significant others over likes and comments on pictures and men do the same. We live so caught up in this make believe world that sometimes we forget what the fuck is right in front of us, the ones who matter. I for one have taken a break from social media. I know spend my time writing and blogging. If I don't like someone I do not visit their page twenty one times a day, because truth is if you don't like someone why are you checking in on them. I don't go through my husbands likes or comments or followers because that doesn't interest me. That's not real life. What the fuck is a like or a comment? If he's going to do something he's going to do it regardless of me stalking his social media. It's his job to let woman know he is taken as it is my job to let men know. Sometimes we get caught up in the attention the outside world is giving and think it's genuine care but how can you care or like someone you know nothing about but the imagine they want to perceive. ‼️‼️‼️‼️