The Lies we tell ourselves

Sometimes it takes us a while to see a person for who they are. Maybe it’s because we don’t want to believe that we’ve put our trust and love into someone who didn’t deserve it. Maybe it’s because we don’t want to admit we knew who they were from the beginning but decided to lie to ourselves because we were in such a desperate need for something, anything to be real, but when it happens there is no turning back. It’s like your eyes finally being awakened to all the truths you’ve denied yourself to see. You can never go back only forward and it’s frightening and exciting at the same time. Frightening because you realize that things do change no matter how hard you try for them not to and exciting because it’s a brand new start on your journey.

Triggers

Mother’s Day is a huge trigger for me. It was the last day I saw my dad alive and well. We were going out to eat and he wanted to come with us and there was no room in the car for him. It’s something I will always look back on and regret. Though I am very privileged to still have my mom with me and I was lucky to have such a loving father, I can’t lie it fucks with me. So as I sit here about to get ready for my mother’s day weekend my heart is heavy.

Blogging

If you think you know someone based on what they post on Instagram, Facebook or twitter, your living in a made up reality. Unless a person uses their page as a diary or specifically says I’m going through this you really don’t know why they post what they post. Though many use social media as an outlet to throw indirects, and write what they are personally going through, I do not. To each their own but that’s not my cup of tea. This is why I have this blog. This is the only blog where I share things that are true to me and things that I am experiencing or have an opinion on.

Vibes

You can’t make them stay. If someone wants to go, let them. The world did not put you here to beg and plead for someone to stay in your life. People who vibe with you naturally,          will always flow towards your energy;