Love, sometimes is just not enough. It is not as black and white as I once thought it was. You can love someone so deeply and if it is not the right time it just will not work. It’s easy to say if you love someone you just wouldn’t give up on them, you just wouldn’t let them go, but that’s total bullshit. There’s so much that I have learned about love, things I never believed to be possible. I use to love in such a possessive manner until I learned that love is not about control, it is not about possession and it definitely is not about manipulation. Love is such an empowering, free feeling. It is so amazing when you can say you’ve experienced love in such a way, that it has opened your mind to so much more than you have ever believed it to be. 

Ghost

 I don’t know what to do with these feelings that I hold for you. I want to run until the burning in my chest takes over the pain that I feel. I want to run until it doesn’t exist anymore, until the memories disappear into the mist of the dark cold night, but you can’t outrun ghost, can you. 

 I have learned that a person that is not happy within themselves will seek out to make others unhappy. They will name call, they will plant insecure thoughts, they will make subtle comments that are indirectly directed to get a rise out of a person, only to sit back and watch it all unfold behind the cowardly insecure bold front that they put up. This has nothing to do with you, and everything to do with how unhappy they are within themselves. Every invitation into chaos, does not require your attendance. Learn how to steer clear from people that are always angry. Don’t share your energy with someone who sees a problem within everything. You will end up feeling drained, while they get their  daily supply of negativity. Learn how to walk away instead of engaging in the negativity. Your energy will thank you. 

 They say that communication is key, but you cant communicate with someone if they don’t have comprehension skills, they will never understand what it is you are telling them. Some people thrive off negativity and drama and they want to debate everything, not because they actually want to learn from it but because in debating something that is quite clear they think they are creating chaos which once again they thrive on.

 You have to allow people to feel what they feel, and that doesn’t mean you have to allow people to over step any boundaries you have created. What it means is respect what they feel without being overtaken by it. You don’t owe any explanations and you don’t owe anyone your energy if they bring you any kind of negativity you owe it to yourself and your mental health to stay all the way away from them. Don’t be afraid to set boundaries and cut people off. If they are not for you keep it pushing. 

 You weren’t the person I believed you to be, and that’s okay. I was seeing things the way I wanted to see them not the way they were. I have reached a place where I can finally admit that. Sometimes when we want something to be true, our views can become distorted, but when you take several steps back the view becomes so clear, and things you didn’t see before become visible. I won’t let my pride or ego get in the way of admitting how wrong I was. The first step is accountability, then comes the clarity. 

365

 I can never express to you how much I appreciate you. You came so unexpected and you have taught me what it means to have a friend and a lover. You have taught me what it feels like to fully express myself and have someone listen, to actually listen not to respond but to learn about me. You have traced all the colors of my soul with the your fingers and you have journeyed your way into my heart. 365 days and it feels like I’ve known you for far longer than that. I wake up everyday and I look forward to everything life has in store for us. Thank you for joining me on this road that we call life. 

Healing requires discipline, you can’t keep revisiting something and opening wounds. You can not keep taking one hundred steps backwards, expecting shit to change, no progress will ever be made if you keep going back to a place of hurt. It’s a journey, there will be bad days and there will be good days but you have to hold yourself responsible for your emotions and your behavior. #period

 She looked at me her eyes full of sadness "so tell me.. tell me you don't love me anymore and you want this to be over!" And though that was the furthest thing from the truth, I had to let her go. What we were doing was wrong and to many people would get hurt... I looked at her and I kept my gaze on her for a moment longer than usual, I was trying to take her all in. Her beautiful eyes, her lips, her scent.... as if I were preparing myself to spend this lifetime without her. My heart pounded and it felt as if it were about to rip out of my chest. "I don't love you anymore and I don't want this, I'm sorry." She looked up at me searching for the truth in my eyes, with tears in hers she placed her lips on mine, whispered she loved me and walked away. I wanted to scream her name, I wanted to tell her the truth but I just stood there and watched her until she disappeared... I still think about her and sometimes I could swear I smell her scent, but night after night I bury her away in my memories and that's where she will forever stay... 

-Luna Reign

 I didn’t fall in love with her beauty I fell in love with her soul. I fell in love with the way her eyes give off vivid colors of brown when the sun flirts against their hues and oh man her laugh. She is a gentle reminder that amongst all the darkness of the world, there is light; 

-Luna Reign 

 And if you can look into my eyes, and tell me that you truly don’t love me, I will let you go. For I will never hold onto a heart that does not want to be held; 

-Luna Reign 

 You can’t live life based on the needs of others. If you live life based on what others need you will always come short of giving yourself what you need. Don’t neglect yourself for the sake of another. 

“When did I lose you?”

 “When did I lose you?” 

You lost me a long time ago. You lost me a little more each time. The nights I wondered where you were and with who. The nights when my heart and my mind battled against each other. One knowing better than the other that love isn’t confusion. With each discovered infidelity, you lost a piece of me, until  there was absolutely nothing left for me to give you;

-Luna Reign 

 

 The truth is I love you. No amount of time nor space will ever change that, because when you love someone from your soul the love lives on forever;