Saturday, April 17, 2021

Vulnerability

 I was made to believe the vulnerability made you weak. I was made to believe that if you cried you were too sensitive, and hugging was not normal to me growing up. Human touch still makes me uncomfortable. I dislike it when anyone enters my comfort zone without my permission it’s weird to me and I know I’m the one with the problem, but when you grow up believing these things, it becomes a part of your normal. I have been working hard to shed my old fears and old restraints. I am holding myself accountable for my actions and the way I react to things. I am working hard to be the healthiest me. I am setting boundaries and sticking to them. I am no longer saying yes to the things I want to say NO to, and I don’t care who gets upset. For the first time I am being selfish with everyone but me, and I am okay with that.

 S ometimes those who have suffered a great deal are the ones that seem tough. The ones that remain quiet as others around them share their ...