Thoughts

Thinking of sharing a very personal journey that I am about to embark on. I haven’t decided yet that I will but I am thinking about it. Sharing such personal intimate pieces of my life is extremely hard for me but I think of all the people it could help.

Emotionally immature

When your dealing with an emotionally immature person they will react on impulse and assumptions. They won't take the time to evaluate the situation and they won't take the time to get their emotions under control before approaching you. Every conversation will have a "me" or a "but" in it and everything they do will have a validation on to why they did it or reacted in the way they did. 

Romance

Romance is such an important part to any relationship. Everyday we wake up and it’s the normal hussle and bustle of the day. We wake up we get the kids off to school, head to work and our day begins and ends before we can blink and eye. It is important to take time atleast once a week or twice a month to romance your partner. A date night. A romantic picnic at a park with a view. A wine tasting or a brewery. Even a night in with candles and soft music. These are simple inexpensive things that create a foundation that says, yes we live busy lives but you are still important and I still want you the way I wanted you all them years ago. 

Free writing

I find myself writing even when I have nothing to write about. Sometimes it feels like an outer body experience and then I look back and I think to myself, man I wrote that. I’m going to start off by telling you about my day. It’s Saturday I’m not feeling myself and I have so much thoughts on my mind. Thoughts of happiness, thoughts of sadness, thoughts of selfishness and selflessness. Why is it that we as humans complicate life. Why do we manifest our fears instead of our hopes. We live life based on being afraid. Afraid of the truth afraid of love and afraid of happiness. And I’m talking about myself here. I for one, if something is going too good I start searching for the bad, I start making things up in my head and telling myself this is way too good to be true. I guess I’m scared to be happy for the same reasons everyone else is. Happiness and love make us vulnerable, it leaves the door wide open for someone to come in and hurt us. That’s scary especially when you’ve been hurt and let down many times before. So what do you do when you want to grasp for something but at the same time want to turn and run away.

Complicated

Why is it that we as humans complicate life. Why do we manifest our fears instead of our hopes and dreams. We live life based on being afraid. Afraid of the truth, afraid of love and afraid of happiness. And I’m talking about myself here. I for one, if something is going too good I start searching for the bad, I start making things up in my head and telling myself this is way too good to be true. I guess I’m scared to be happy for the same reasons everyone else is. Happiness and love make us vulnerable, it leaves the door wide open for someone to come in and hurt us. That’s scary especially when you’ve been hurt and let down many times before. So what do you do when you want to grasp for something but at the same time you want to turn and run away;