The best of me

I wish I knew all the answers to the questions that ramble inside of my head. I swear sometimes I let my thoughts get the best of me.

You have to allow people time to heal and you have to allow the process to be completely theirs but what you don’t have to allow is any bad behavior from them as they heal. No one is entitled to call you names, put you down, or use your past against you. Some people will hold on to hurt and anger and at any chance use it against you and that is not what healing is about, that’s called manipulation. They want to hang it over your head because they know guilt will make you give in. Recognize that sometimes the ones closest to us know us and they know what triggers us and what they can use against us to get their way.

You are responsible for your own happiness. If you are not happy with the person within you, you will never be happy with anyone and no one will be happy with you. At the end of the day you have to take responsibility for your choices in life.

I miss you

With the holidays approaching my heart gets a little heavy. I miss him everyday. Some days I miss him more than usual but the feeling is constant and it never fades. I miss him more around the holidays because he was a ball of energy and he loved the holidays. It’s  crazy how it’s the simple things that I miss, like the sound of his voice and his hugs. How I had to yell over the telephone so he could hear me. Sometimes the selfishness in me wishes he were here and I know somehow he is though not seen he’s with me each and everyday and that brings me some sort of comfort.