Stop waiting

Stop waiting. Stop waiting for the right moment, it may never come. Go after life and live it. Spread love, hug more, allow yourself be vulnerable. Allow yourself to feel, take it all in and appreciate every moment that has been given to you.

None

Do not let them get the best of you. If you’ve removed someone from your life and they continuously try to make themselves a factor in your life by speaking about you, following your social networks, sending emails etc, it is up to you to block their energy each and every time. What you allow to affect you, will consume you. The best reaction is no reaction at all;

Random!!!!!

Sometimes we find people without looking for them. Maybe they were there the whole time and suddenly something awakens. Sometimes we meet them at the most random of places at the most random of times. Everything in this life has a cause and effect and even the smallest of choices make a ripple in our lives. I have learned that beauty and love only exist if we allow them to and only if we see it and feel it within ourselves. I have learned that seldom we see the beauty of the moment and we always see the beauty once the moment has passed. If we value the things that exist right now we wouldn’t always want more. We wouldn’t get excited about the thrill of the chase but enjoy the stillness that the now presents to us.

Eat Pray Love

As the sun peeked it’s way into my bedroom window I grabbed my phone to check the time, I realize I’ve slept in. I never ever sleep in. I’m always up at the crack of dawn but damn it felt good. I stood up a little later than usual and I watched Eat Pray Love. If you have not seen it I recommend that you do. It’s amazing as to how we slip into our daily lives and forget our wants and needs. We forget the things we love as an individual human being and it’s okay to fall back in love with oneself and all the things we have forgotten. It has inspired me to do the things I love and have forgotten. I use to love to dance and I’ve forgotten my love for it. I remember how good it felt to allow myself to get lost into the music and just allow it to guide me. I’m going to start with baby steps but I will reawaken those things I use to do solely for me. I will fall back in love with all the things that I have forgotten along the way and that’s okay. You shouldn’t have to lose pieces of yourself for anyone in fact it’s healthy to have hobby’s and sports that bring you happiness and pleasure and we often forget that, when we are to busy taking care of everything and everyone else.

Observation

I’ve had very extensive conversations with different groups of people and the topic has been love and happiness. Why is it that most of us are in unfulfilling relationships? Why do we make choices that don’t fully resonate with our soul? Why are most of us unhappy? We are all in search of pretty much the same thing and some of us are lucky enough to find it and go for it and most of us out of fear of being too happy, run. Happiness goes hand in hand with fear, because we are conditioned to believe that if something is too good to be true it’s fake. We are taught to be happy but not too happy. We are taught that as long as those around us are happy we should be happy and satisfied with that. We rush love and into relationships and then wonder why we’re so unhappy and lonely even when we are in the presence of others. Those that don’t see us. Those that don’t hear us. Smfh.

New year

One of my goals this year is to love harder. I tend to shut down and not show those I love that I love them. This is my biggest fault. I like to cut off and be done but that’s not fair to people. I’m coming to terms with how toxic that behavior really is. It’s not a power move. It’s selfish and childish and I see that shit clearly now. I have issues with committing to anything, even dinner plans. My answer is always “maybe” I can never say yes and follow through. It’s the weirdest shit ever. I always say it’s because I don’t like to cancel so I’d rather say “maybe” but as I learn more about myself I think it has more to do with my fear to commit. Another thing I'm going to work on is how non vocal I am. I keep everything bottled in. I write about it but I very rarely tell people what I’m feeling. And last but not least is being present and really taking in the moments and really enjoying the company of those around me. Sometimes all someone needs is to feel seen.