And although I love him with all of my heart, with every inch of my soul, I just can’t do it anymore. I realize that my love isn’t enough to save him, it isn’t enough to change him. And I can’t keep fighting for something that is not there, maybe it never was there. Looking back I realize I overlooked so many things, I forgave the unforgivable, and it was more for me than for him. I was broken and willing to accept things that I should have never accepted, I realize and see things so differently now. 

 The silent space that you have left within me has taken over, I can’t find the words anymore. The feeling is gone, I gave it all to you. Now all that is left is this empty feeling within me, that now questions everything I once felt for you;

Negative

 Some people are just masses of negative energy. All they emit is negativity, and they feel powerful in making others feel small or less than. It’s all a coping mechanism to their self esteem. They put others below them and themselves on pedestals. They chase bigger and better because in their minds they want and deserve the best but at what value is the best when they can’t see the value of what’s right in front of them?? Stay away from people who are constantly looking at the faults of others, pointing fingers, laughing, and placing blame. You will find that these people rarely ever have anything positive about them. 

FALSE

Some people will try and piece together your life by what they perceive and the bits and pieces they have gathered. They piece together this false narrative based on false information, their perception of things and watching ALL of your social media pages.... They come up with this grand master piece of NOTHING and they delusion themselves into believing that this is your truth Lmaoo. You have to ignore people who constantly watch you, and think they know you based off what they have gathered from third parties. If someone doesn’t know you personally don’t take shit they do or say personally, that’s really a no brainer. 😘😘

 You can only give youself so much until there is no more left to  give.

Do you know what if feels lke to feel as if your drowning. Every day you give and you give and you get to this point where inside you almsot feel less alive. Days go by and it feels like you are on auto pilot just floating in mid space, and everything around is moving but your suspended in time. It feels as if your yells and your pleas have been muffled by nothing just this time that seems to move but your not moving at all. Its as if everyone is looking at you but no one really sees you