New moon

I guess this new moon really is having an affect on me and my feelings because I’ve been in such an intense mood. I wrote a letter today asking someone for forgiveness because I know that my actions and one point in time did hurt them and though they will never receive this letter because we have lost touch it was such a release to actually write it down and read it out loud. I’ve never been a vocal person I tend to shut down and keep quiet but as I learn and grow, I am learning to love the sound of my own voice and I’m learning to speak up about the things I believe in and I am  also learning not to be so afraid in asking others for what I need. I think we get so caught up in fear and expect people to know what we want and need and that’s how signals get crossed and things that should have been said remain unheard. I also think I need to forgive myself for being so afraid and caught up in the what if. I never believed in myself and that’s where I fell short. Everything that happens, happens for different reasons and I truly believe that what is meant to be will always be regardless of the time, space or dimension we are in. So this is my sorry to them for being so afraid of all the possibilities and to myself for being so afraid of sadly..... everything.